long live Ten

So David Tennant is regenerating into Matt Smith tomorrow night.

Or, should I say, Ten is regenerating into Eleven.

Not happy. I mean, I knew it had to happen eventually, we all did. Tennant has had three great serieses and two specials, not to mention four Christmas specials, and the finales this Christmas. In some ways it feels like a good time for him to leave,
because his behaviour in the role has become sort of.. predictable. But gah, I love him, I don't want to watch some young bloke dashing around the TARDIS :(

Matt Smith, from what I've seen, seems like a nice lad (lol he's like 27? So he still has a decade on me), and genuinely happy to have been chosen to be Eleven, which is good. We don't want just anyone doing it! And of course I'll give him a fair chance. I didn't like Tennant at first, which is unbelievable. I had just spent, what, two months or whatever awaiting every Saturday night to watch Christopher Eccleston and Billie Piper run around through time and space; Suddenly this new bloke ("with puppy dog eyes" AS MY MUM SAYS ALL THE TIME) was taking over? It was weird! I didn't like it. But the Christmas special was wonderful ("No second chances. I'm that sort of man.") and I grew to love David Tennant.

I can't see the same happening with Matt Smith but I'll give it a go. He clearly is a talented actor who'll take the part seriously. And after all, when Tennant was announced as Ten, I bet a lot of people were going, "David Who..?" (Just as I did.)

But anyway, my point is: I'm upset and will miss David Tennant lots. In fact, no, scratch that. Odds are that Tennant will be around the world of the BBC for years to come. I will miss Ten. I will miss the coat and the suit and the hair and the glasses and the Converse and the "HA!" and the smile and the puppy dog eyes. I even miss him now, sort of, because he isn't the same.

I liked him the best with Donna. He interacted the best with her, I think. With Rose, he was very sweet, and I liked the way he smiled at her and clearly cared for her. I'm not much of a Martha fan (Freema, you're cool, but try acting,okay?) and I always liked the fact that the Doctor didn't respond to Martha's 'crush' thing. But I think the BFF mode he had with Donna was fantastic. :)

He will always be my Doctor. Everybody has A Doctor, one that specifically drew them to the show; Mine is Ten[nant] and always will be.

Feel free to share your thoughts. I just had to ramble about this.

- J xx

p.s. Please, Russell T.Davies, please do not mess this finale up. PLEASE.

oh hey, i have a blog yeah

So, I saw Green Day. They were phenominal as expected. Also saw Muse. Tremendous. I might review them all when I feel less irritated. Also saw Michael McIntyre. Mmmm.

Do you ever think people just deliberately try and hurt you, just to recieve a response? I think so. Especially lately. I don't know what they want from me. And I would say that I don't care but, well, I do.

God this is depressing. My best friend is moving away for uni next year. I might be going to uni too but I dobn't want to leave Sheffield. She is either going to Nottingham, Birmingham, Leeds, York or Lincoln. She's so excited. I don't want her to go. :'( I'm such a baby.

I Just want to have fun. But it's not happening!!!

- J xx

help.

I feel numb. I don't even get it. I have exams coming up (first one is on Tuesday, and am I prepared? am I fuck), that's stressful, stuff's happened, and I just can't function right. I don't wnat to do anything anymroe. I just want to sleep all t he time, or be drunk. Whichever.

Summer, please.

You've got a piece of me
and, honestly,
my life would suck without you.

ps. i'm seeing Green Day. Twice.

I need to grow up

This band (Green Day, just in case you didn't know) have recently announced a UK tour in October.
I'm ecstatic. Seriously. I can't stop thinking about it. This band means so much to me it's actually quite sad. But the saddest thing is, I actually just thought, I care more about seeing Green Day live than my A levels. Okay. That is pathetic. I need to grow up, now.

Jess Grayson: Bookworm.

Went to the library today with my good friend Laura. I used to be a total bookworm, especially from about the age of ten to like, thirteen. Literally all I ever did was read books. It fizzled out a bit, and lately I've been so busy that I just didn't have the time. But! I am determined to start reading again, even if it's just to break apart from the *shudder* revision.

So I got seven books. They are:

Tuesday's Child by Louise Bagshawe;
Flawless by Sara Shepherd;
Doctor Who: Sting Of The Zygons by Stephen Cole;
Along Came Dylan by Stephen Foster;
Torchwood: Trace Memory, by David Llewellyn;
Anything Goes by John Barrowman (and Carole E. Barrowman)
Kathy's Story by Kathy O'Beirne

Yeeeaahhh, and I have until the 16th of May.

Oh sweet god, I'll have done two AS level exams by then. Kill me now.

- J xx

aspirations.

For a good few years now, I've wanted to be a writer. You know when someone asks you, "So, what do you want to do?" (usually with when you grow up on the end). I used to say, "I want to be a writer." And they'd usually go, "Oh, like an author?" and I'd shrug and say, "Maybe. Maybe in newspapers, maybe in magazines. Maybe books." Somewhere along the line, this became a serious aspiration to become a journalist. So when people asked, I'd say, "I want to be a journalist." And they'd go, "Oh! You want to be on the news?" and I'd shake my head and say, "I don't want to be on the news. I don't want people to see me. I want people to read my words." This changed to writing books, novels, and when they'd ask I'd say "novelist".

But I've come to realise I am not such a good writer. And it's weird. I wouldn't say I was a bad writer, as such. I can write. It's just that, sometimes, my words don't come out write. It's like permanent writer's block. I can never portray my thoughts in just the right way.

And so I'm faced with the question, How do I be a writer if I can't express my thoughts in words?

And the answer: I don't know.